Three Months of Eternity Together - A Letter to My Future Husband!!

I look back to the time I mentioned the things I wanted in my future husband and of how my friends smirked and laughed at it. They believed 
that I would end up heartbroken or even worse 'SINGLE FOREVER'. 

I had this huge list of characteristics that I wanted in my man at the back of my sociology notebook, but I had to seriously reconsider that after getting saved.

With new affections and a changed heart there was a need for a new list altogether and the first thing I wrote down then was..... " A man who has an intimate relationship with Jesus... A man who knows my heavenly Father".

To be honest I couldn't move past that point. The previous list was overwhelmingly exploding with things that fascinated my eyes; 6'1, dread locks :p , blue eyes, drove a Harley or something. But now all I could think about was a man of God who could lead me with strong hands - NOT A BOY!!! 

I started dreading the boys who were all about iphones, cars or Pearl Jam for that matter.
 I saw my great limitations and weaknesses and all I could do was...  fix my eyes unto Jesus knowing that everything else would fall into place if I delighted myself in Him and things He wanted me to do first.I don't boast about any of this to bring credit to me or any other person for that sake but may God and His will be glorified and like I truly believe and say,when it happens according to His appointed timing it'll leave you astounded!

Well, In that moment of surrender and quietness when Satan would have tempted me to believe that I was such a desperate loner, a simpering piece of self loath and pity, God was actually preparing me for something bigger.
 And then 'this man' came along, in ways I could have least expected. 
I took two days to actually recover from the shock of confirmation...It was kinda dramatic for me and I had to shut my self up for hours to discern God's will and after wrestling in prayer with all those doubts and insecurities I carried from  ages, all I was left with was, a tremendous assurance and a sense of peace that this world can't give me. Yes! God works in mysterious ways, who could deny that?!!

I was always irresistibly charmed by all those fairy tales and love songs andsince I'm a bit old school, Pride and Prejudice was my thing but trust me, they or even the best the world could offer appears so corny and trite when compared to a relationship that is built on Christ... they lack the most essential thing without which everything is in vain. 
Just like a pack of cards in a hurricane...like a sand castle, even worse!!!!!

 Christ is our solid rock, no relationship can possibly exist without Him....so stop foolin' around! The first and the most important thing is to honour God through any relationship, that's what makes it so beautiful and actually stand the test of time. God fills while everything else drains! Not just the bad things even the good things for that sake, if you don't make God a part of it...it will wither and ultimately drain you.
And I am thankful God made me wait rather than screwing it up by leaning on my own stubborn ways and now as we complete our third month which almost seems like eternity together
 this one goes out for you....

A little letter for my future husband... the man God picked for me!

Dear Kyle

I thank you for the man you are and everything God has made you to be. 
You truly bereft me of words.
I thank God for the wisdom and understanding He has blessed you with. 

I'm thankful for your gentle spirit that lives for Jesus and your ways 
and thoughts that strive to please Him daily.
How you inspire me to be like Him more and more each day by living as an example. 
Your heart that is so filled with goodness and love for me and for others.

Your sensibility on matters of finance and just knowing how organised 
and focused you are amazes me.
 I thank you for the immense love you bestow upon me at all times,
 for your words that encourage and lifts 
up my spirit.

I love the way you keep asking for my opinions on your business matters even though I might be the least qualified person to be doing so. 
You treat me with so much dignity, more than I can ever deserve.

I truly love all your poetries and work of art for me and like I say even
Shakespeare's stuff is just so prosaic in front of what my man does (you are my shakesloo).
 You truly take my breath away when you go all out of the way to do things to please me. 
Your kindness and generosity, your strength and humility blesses me 
inside and out.

The way you melt my heart when you tell me you love me with a twinkle 
in your eyes and a conviction in your voice... LIKE 40 TIMES A DAY!!!!!
The way you compare me with random animals I don't even know exist.

The way you delight in my spiritual maturity and teach me biblical truths, 
never hold back reproof and the way you're patient and forgiving. 
The way you love everything I love no matter how insignificant it might be
 (and that includes Pink)! 

How you respect me and never try to match me up with what the world considers good.
 How you so magnificently hide all my flaws and scars in your love and admiration, making all my shortcomings powerless to me as well. 
How you praise me and tell me I'm beautiful when I'm probably in my worst... 
The way you call me Proverbs 31 lady and though I might fall short of 
the grace and virtue you help me strive to be one daily. 
How we make a perfect team together: You, Me and most importantly 
       Christ at the centre of it...ahh YES!!

How we pull off our cool lingo and how we can never grow out of 
Biltong and Po-ha! (Ha-ha)
 How you keep asking me to eat more. How we pray together. 

How you call me an onion and how I love your morning eyes!

How perfectly God has created you for me that if He asks me to change 
anything about you... 
I would rather ask Him to reverse it and change me instead 
because I can never be good enough to deserve you.

I truly love you more than words could tell.
You bless my spirit and complete me!
And all I wanna say is “THANK YOU”

Your future wife